Once I Held An Angel

ONCE I HELD AN ANGEL

(author unknown)

 

Once I held an angel,

So very close to me.

I watched him run and jump and dance,

But only in my memory.

I waited for the day he'd come;

He'd bring such joy to all.

Then the Angel was called home,

He never had to fall.

He was too perfect for this world,

He didn't need to stay.

He went straight up to Heaven,

I'll join him there someday.

You don't know how I feel-

Please don't tell me that you do.

There's just one way to know--

Have you lost a child, too?

"You'll have another child!"

Must I hear this every day?

Can I get another mother too,

If mine should pass away?

Don't say "It was God's will"

That's not the God I know.

Would God on purpose break my heart,

Then watch as my tears flow?

"Aren't you better yet?"

Is that what I heard you say?

NO! A part of my heart aches,

I'll always feel some pain.

You think that silence is kind,

But it hurts me even more.

I want to talk about my child,

Who has gone through death's door.

Don't say these things to me,

Although you do mean well.

They do not take the pain away;

I must go through this hell.

I will get better, slow but sure.

And it helps to have you near.

But a simple, "I'm sorry you lost your child."

Is all I need to hear.

A million times I've needed you.

A million times I've cried.

If love alone could have saved you,

You would have never died.

In life I loved you dearly,

In death I love you still.

In my heart you hold a special place,

That none will ever fill.

It broke my heart to lose you,

But you did not go alone,

For all my love went with you

The day God called you home.

God's finger touched him....and he slept. ~Kyle~ Our Angel Born Sleeping

HOME DEPOT!!!

In recognition of football season....the item this month was a football holder.  (If you turn it over, it looks like a toy table.) 

Kraig usually has his apron on (but he got hot)...and his self appointed job is to hold the pieces in the pockets until needed.

This is usually how the project goes....either Chris or I do the work...and he gets the pin and certificate!

(Look at the little sun spot....I read somewhere recently that those "orbs" that get captured in pictures are really angels in the pic.  I like that...maybe it means Kyle was there with us.)

Of course when we got it home, Kraig used it as a fortress for his army men.   Repurposing....even at age 5!

January -- RANDOM

I didn't get pictures taken during Christmas, but here is the figurine we bought for Kyle. 

And here is the group of all of them.....

The new year started off with some excitement for our neighbors.....they had a chimney fire. No damage or anything, but Kraig got a bird's eye view of two fire engines and the fire marshall's car.

Kraig had another party to go to....at Pump it Up again.  This time, he didn't even wait for us to get our shoes off.  He took his off and he was gone!

And the 2010 ice storm....I had to go to work, so I asked Chris to take some pics for me.  I love ice/snow in the trees... I think it's so pretty...not the havoc it wreaks, but it is pretty to look at.

Christmas Decorating

We usually try to decorate for Christmas the weekend of Thanksgiving, but that didn't happen this year (and frankly hasn't happened then for a few years now).  And for reasons I don't even know, I didn't get any pictures taken of the inside decorations, other than the tree.  So here is the outside of the house....

The tree.....most of the ornaments we put on anymore are either gifts or made by the children.  

You'll notice many of the ornaments are congregated near the bottom.....bet you can't guess why?

Here is Kyle's wreath for the cemetary.....

And of course, the figurine we buy each year....

And here are all the figurines so far.....from left to right:

2009 (bell with the angel boy on top)

2005 (bear with angel baby asleep on leg)

2004 (angel wings around mom in pink shirt holding baby--this is the one Chris got me while I was in the hospital, when they were born and what started the figurine tradition)

2008 (angel with boy in snowglobe)

2007 (angel hold baby boy in blue clothes)

2006 (angel holding baby boy)

This is the wreath I decorated for Kyle this year...at the house.


...at the cemetary




Christmas Day...

Kyle is 4!!

Kyle turned 4 on November 4th.....however, he spent his birthday in Heaven.

This is one of the cupcakes I made for his birthday.

Kraig helped.....



Each year, we buy rose petals to sprinkle at the cemetary. Kraig gets a little more involved each year as well....he sprinkled most of them. He also blows kisses and says hi and bye to Kyle when we go.



We don't have a headstone yet, so we can't leave flowers there, so we take a balloon and rose petals. Usually we leave the balloon for a week, but there was a storm this week, so we picked it up early.